Your My Everything

Wow. I Cant Believe That I Have Found You.

Dear Anthony,

Hey You, whats up. LOL. So I was writing this letter to you in my blog because I want everyone else to see why I fell in love you with. I haven't even told my friends, and I know that may bother you sometimes, but honestly my friends are mainly drama. I remember the first time I laid eyes on you, you were trying so hard to stand straight that I couldn't help but laugh. I remembered the way you looked at me when ever you seen me laughing at you, and you couldn't help but giggle yourself. Then you made your way over to me. Its funny because I have never seen you so drunk since the time that I have known you. I dont even know if you remember the first thing that you said to me, you asked me if I was black. HAHA! At first I thought you were being serious, and then I realized that you were just messing with me because I noticed that grin on your face. ( Just writing this I am putting a smile on my face), and since then you have always put a smile on my face. You were there for me when I need you the most, and when ever I was all left alone, I knew that I could call on you to come pick me up. You were so protective of me even when we were not dating. I remember the night of Luiss' party Oscar was my boyfriend at the time, and you were his best friend, but that didnt stop my eyes from wondering towards you. I know you caught me doing it, because you would always mess with me about it. Showing me your nipple when u had a muscle shirt on, ( in a non gross way), and always flashing your stomach towards me. You always tempted me, but we both didnt agree on cheating. At her party I remember that Oscar was so drunk that in the parking lot, you wouldn't let me go home with him. You made me ride with you, and that sir I did not object to. At first, it was kinda awkward but then I let loose. We talked the whole night untill about 6 in the morning. I was so tempted to kiss those lips, that I had to bite mine.

The day that it became offiicial that me and Oscar were broken up, you made that move. We went to the movies on the opposite side of town just so that no one would see us. HAHA! You said we were on a "Mission" haha. OK well enough stories. haha.

I just wanted to let you know that I really do appreciate you in my life. I am so thankful for the person that you have helped me become. 9- 16-09!!! is the date that I will always remember.

XOXO

Kirbi

Well, I usually don’t consider Miley Cyrus a real singer, but after listening to this song, I now see her in a different manner. I respect her, because of this song. When I was listening to this song, it made me realize that I let go of a good thing. I used to be with a person that made me nothing but happy, and because of my selfish ways I decided to let that person go. I feel incomplete now, and I no longer feel happy. I’ve had these thoughts about how I would be right now if I was still with him, and I believe that I would be a much happier person. I never allowed myself to love the way that I used to, and I wish that I did. I miss the way that he held me, complimented me, as well as made my happy when I was crying. I never told anyone about him because I was afraid of what people would say about him because he wasn’t exactly everyones definition of a good person. He didn’t finish high school,was constantly getting in trouble with the law, crashed his car, didn’t have a job, still lived with his mother, but somehow I accepted that for a while because he made me happy, and that was all that mattered. But, when i finally began to tell people about him, they would give me shit for him. I usually never go with what people says, but this time it was different. They would sit in class, and bad mouth him, and only a few of them actually had the please of actually meeting him. They would tell me that I would need to let him go because he was going to only bring me down in life, and for some reason ,i actually believed him. We dated for about 4 months before I finally realized that it was time to let him go. He wasn’t doing anything positive for me, and it was so hard to actually see him.

I listened to my friends, and look where it has gotten me now. I miss him. I never really thought that I would the way that I do, but I do really miss him. He is like a dream to me because I only get to speak to him on the phone now, or via text message.

I guess what I am trying to say with all this non-sense is that always listen to your heart. Don’t let your friends or family get in the way of what you love the most. When ever I close my eyes now, I see him. When ever I listen to rap, I hear him. LOL. One of the funniest memories that I have of him is that he would always show me his raps. He actually made a CD, and it was my job to make the cover for him, which I never completed. He was always that “wannabe thug” in my eyes, and he would always wonder how I seen right thru him. It made me laugh, when he would try to act all hard towards me, because I could see thru him better then a window. It always bugged him though.

Just a few days ago, we began talking a lot more, but we haven’t seen each other for about 5 months, maybe longer. He asked me out again, but I had to decline the offer. I just wasn’t ready for a relationship with someone so far away. Since I moved to college, I knew that it would be even more difficult. Well, like I said you should always listen to your heart, and what makes you happy.

OK, well until next time.

To Each is their own. :)